In today’s world, my wish is not really a case of “me against the world” as transvestites are coming out of the closet and gaining acceptance in society. Except that I’m a girl.

I’m a girl who wants to be a transvestite. After watching a couple of documentaries on transvestites, I felt like: look at me, I’m a girl but I don’t really appreciate it as these guys do. I want o dress up like them, put makeup on, put high heels on, and get out of the house and be somewhere for nothing at all. Well, maybe just to show myself off.

What I like about these guys (or gays but not necessarily) is that they express themselves – they show their sexuality and they are not afraid to be judged for doing it.

Another thing that I like about these guys is that they spend the time for themselves – to look good and feel good. Nowadays, most women (not only me) can afford this luxury.

But for the most part, the thing I like about these guys is that they appreciate women – so much – they have to dress the part. And I really mean this from the bottom of my heart.

Getting dressed and getting made up is not in my comfort zone. In my upbringing, being “pretty” is not part of it. Now that I’m a grown up, I find it uncomfortable to wear accessories (yes, even earrings), I feel awkward wearing high heels, and I see that I look horrible when I have makeup on. Sounds weird, right?

In a country that spends millions of dollars in cosmetics every year, the only ones I have are a face powder and a lip balm made of cocoa butter. Well, I have mascara that I bought in 2006 but as I learned from some woman while watching a home organization show, makeup expires in six months so I need to get rid of it.

If all women in America are like me, the cosmetics industry would be out of business. But I am the exception and I think the industry should thank me for that.

So now you got my point in saying that I want to be a transvestite. That’s because it would defy an upbringing that is now very much part of my bones. That and the fact that I’m a girl.